Dreams In A bucket

You sat down there facing the sky
Wishing there were stars tonight
Tears werent dry and theyre still dropping on your smooth little thighs
Tears on your nose, you thought about the things
And all of the shit that you did in the past
You released it all to me and i do not react
But i remember in my head

To me, youre so beautiful
your hair's a luscious and aromatic
I just love the way you have your smile
And you steal all those kisses from me
I love you baby

Pack all your dreams in a bucket
And throw it all into the sea
Pack all your lies in a paper bag
For all to see

And then you lied on my shoulder
Thinking about how much i was to you
So precious, you were scared to let me go
Same thoughts for me
You are the treasure ive found without a key

Pack all your dreams in a bucket
And throw it all into the sea
Pack all your lies in a paper bag
For all to see

And i know that youd be here
All the way till i die
Because of you and me together
Ill never let this go

This song always, always speak to me coz Trav wrote this song for me when we first got together. It's been 18 months since, and things definitely will change. When i listen to the song, i feel all of his emotions coming together. I feel his love right there in front of me and thats something i can never get when he is standing right next to me. Why is it that he can never express such love for me anymore? This song comforts me everytime because it automatically calms me. It is something i can never get with Trav because he never seems to know how to cheer someone up. Isnt it sad to know that your own boyfriend can never make you smile? I almost wished he could become the song and that we could go back to how we used to be before.

Life for me, is just there. You either live it, or die in it. Somehow, ive become someone whos really painful inside. My friend's always saying "Let's go find God" and well, maybe thats the case for me? Ive been drumming for 8 years and thanks to DollTrash, i decided to major in it and make it a huge part of me. Doll Trash.. I miss the old days.. To me, DT will always and only be Me, Inez, Trav and Din. All four of us were like a happy family, always smiling, always hanging out together like great friends and the vibe we had together was perfect. DT woke me up from everything. I was so much alive then, and i felt that there was a reason to be in a band. DT was my best friend, my one and only true friend. Well, we werent just a band. We hanged out quite alot. Sometimes id meet up with Inez for coffee, shopping and we even did piercings together. Inez, she made me feel like i could trust someone. She was a sister to me and we both relied on each other. I miss her. I miss the old her.

DT didnt meet up for awhile coza school/work commitments and etc. Inez went to do her diploma im mass comunications and as soon as you could say fuck you, we didnt meet up as often anymore. Its like, my best friend just disappeared and i no longer had someone i could talk to. When i missed her, i couldnt see her coz i knew her schedule was tight and i didnt wanna get stood up again. Once, i planned a date with her about a week in advance. I was early, so i waited for her. It didnt work out in the end coz she decided to go bowling with her MDIS friends instead and i was left there heartbrokened. I knew she was busy, so i asked her in advance but even so, this was how it turned out. I decided right there that i shouldnt make plans with her anymore coz i didnt wanna get stood up again. When we did meet a few months later, well most of the time it's unplanned, things changed. I could no longer talk to her like how i used to. Our hugs were no longer exchanged and i felt right there that ive lost my best friend.

The reason why i think i should leave DT, is because ive lost my best friend. DT is no long DollTrash anymore. If im going to feel an awkwardness, then ive lost my meaning here. Its painful, in fact it hurts me more than anything else. Ive seen DT grow from something small, to something productive, even with half our original line up gone. I wish something could be done to change things but i dont know if its possible. Inez, remember those times when you got drunk coza "you know who" and not only did you make a fool outta yourself but you also tried to make out with me? Ill always remember that coz it's one of the last times we were ever that close. It was one of the happiest moment i had with DT. Remember the time i got drunk at Gashaus and you piggy backed me all the way to the toilet? Even though Saito the loser was an asshole, but i still had fun with you guys! Theres just too much to remember. You know, if i could feel all these again, id really want it to be with DT.

Dear Inez, When i first met you, i felt a connection with you. I felt that we had so much in common and so, when you had your problems, i tried to be there for you. I tried to give you the support you needed because you were my sister, and my best friend. But somehow along the way, things got messy. You made new friends, had new experiences, thus i felt that i was rejected and neglected by you. It is easy for you coz youre outspoken, unlike i. I can never open up to someone that easy. I mean, you know me well enough dont you? I find it hard to click with certain people. It is very VERY hard for me to make new friends because i just refuse to open up. The only friend i could count on then was you but somehow you werent there and i kinda lost you along the way. Even right now, it feels as though youre just an aquaintance. I couldnt talk to you like how i used to anymore. My family for DT has seperated and it hurts my heart so much. It is not easy to let go of that family that has taken so many memories from me. I miss you. So much Inez.

Dreams In A bucket

You sat down there facing the sky
Wishing there were stars tonight
Tears werent dry and theyre still dropping on your smooth little thighs
Tears on your nose, you thought about the things
And all of the shit that you did in the past
You released it all to me and i do not react
But i remember in my head

To me, youre so beautiful
your hair's a luscious and aromatic
I just love the way you have your smile
And you steal all those kisses from me
I love you baby

Pack all your dreams in a bucket
And throw it all into the sea
Pack all your lies in a paper bag
For all to see

And then you lied on my shoulder
Thinking about how much i was to you
So precious, you were scared to let me go
Same thoughts for me
You are the treasure ive found without a key

Pack all your dreams in a bucket
And throw it all into the sea
Pack all your lies in a paper bag
For all to see

And i know that youd be here
All the way till i die
Because of you and me together
Ill never let this go

This song always, always speak to me coz Trav wrote this song for me when we first got together. It's been 18 months since, and things definitely will change. When i listen to the song, i feel all of his emotions coming together. I feel his love right there in front of me and thats something i can never get when he is standing right next to me. Why is it that he can never express such love for me anymore? This song comforts me everytime because it automatically calms me. It is something i can never get with Trav because he never seems to know how to cheer someone up. Isnt it sad to know that your own boyfriend can never make you smile? I almost wished he could become the song and that we could go back to how we used to be before.

Life for me, is just there. You either live it, or die in it. Somehow, ive become someone whos really painful inside. My friend's always saying "Let's go find God" and well, maybe thats the case for me? Ive been drumming for 8 years and thanks to DollTrash, i decided to major in it and make it a huge part of me. Doll Trash.. I miss the old days.. To me, DT will always and only be Me, Inez, Trav and Din. All four of us were like a happy family, always smiling, always hanging out together like great friends and the vibe we had together was perfect. DT woke me up from everything. I was so much alive then, and i felt that there was a reason to be in a band. DT was my best friend, my one and only true friend. Well, we werent just a band. We hanged out quite alot. Sometimes id meet up with Inez for coffee, shopping and we even did piercings together. Inez, she made me feel like i could trust someone. She was a sister to me and we both relied on each other. I miss her. I miss the old her.

DT didnt meet up for awhile coza school/work commitments and etc. Inez went to do her diploma im mass comunications and as soon as you could say fuck you, we didnt meet up as often anymore. Its like, my best friend just disappeared and i no longer had someone i could talk to. When i missed her, i couldnt see her coz i knew her schedule was tight and i didnt wanna get stood up again. Once, i planned a date with her about a week in advance. I was early, so i waited for her. It didnt work out in the end coz she decided to go bowling with her MDIS friends instead and i was left there heartbrokened. I knew she was busy, so i asked her in advance but even so, this was how it turned out. I decided right there that i shouldnt make plans with her anymore coz i didnt wanna get stood up again. When we did meet a few months later, well most of the time it's unplanned, things changed. I could no longer talk to her like how i used to. Our hugs were no longer exchanged and i felt right there that ive lost my best friend.

The reason why i think i should leave DT, is because ive lost my best friend. DT is no long DollTrash anymore. If im going to feel an awkwardness, then ive lost my meaning here. Its painful, in fact it hurts me more than anything else. Ive seen DT grow from something small, to something productive, even with half our original line up gone. I wish something could be done to change things but i dont know if its possible. Inez, remember those times when you got drunk coza "you know who" and not only did you make a fool outta yourself but you also tried to make out with me? Ill always remember that coz it's one of the last times we were ever that close. It was one of the happiest moment i had with DT. Remember the time i got drunk at Gashaus and you piggy backed me all the way to the toilet? Even though Saito the loser was an asshole, but i still had fun with you guys! Theres just too much to remember. You know, if i could feel all these again, id really want it to be with DT.

Dear Inez, When i first met you, i felt a connection with you. I felt that we had so much in common and so, when you had your problems, i tried to be there for you. I tried to give you the support you needed because you were my sister, and my best friend. But somehow along the way, things got messy. You made new friends, had new experiences, thus i felt that i was rejected and neglected by you. It is easy for you coz youre outspoken, unlike i. I can never open up to someone that easy. I mean, you know me well enough dont you? I find it hard to click with certain people. It is very VERY hard for me to make new friends because i just refuse to open up. The only friend i could count on then was you but somehow you werent there and i kinda lost you along the way. Even right now, it feels as though youre just an aquaintance. I couldnt talk to you like how i used to anymore. My family for DT has seperated and it hurts my heart so much. It is not easy to let go of that family that has taken so many memories from me. I miss you. So much Inez.